If you can’t be great, at least be consistent.

If you can’t be great, at least be consistent!

No, I’m not enlightening the universe with my adult-film industry related clips, but I am damn sure bringing them on a semi-regular basis. And I want to challenge myself to bring them on a more regular basis. The world of blogs means that you give something new each and every day. I can do this.

Blogging’s a different world these days. It’s harder to harness that critical mass of readers than it used to be. Either that, or readers are shyer than they used to be; because I rarely get emails from people I don’t know. Hey: if you’re out there - - email me! Let me know that you’re into the site. Introduce yourself. Leave a comment. Take a chance.

I’m considering heading to Esalen for a month before I dust my heels off in Oakland. Esalen’s in Big Sur . . . there’s a program there called Work-Study where you can work like 32 hours a week, chopping vegetables and whatnot, and then in the evenings you study with a teacher on a subject like Buddhism or Thai Massage or Gestalt Psychology or whatnot. This guy Noah Levine is teaching in February on meditation. He’s a pretty cool cat. I read his book “Dharma Punx” about three years ago and enjoyed it. He started off a punk kid with drug problems in Santa Cruz, but eventually found meditation and healed himself through it. That’s the watered-down part of the story.

I’ve been meditating off and on since 2003, and it’s always made me happy when I can bring myself to do it. Basically, I want to be a happier dude. We all want this. I want to get rid of some of the impediments on my journey - shit I’ve been doing to myself that’s causing needless suffering. Eslane would cost $1100, but that’s not like a fortune or anything. So I might do it.

I s’pose there’s some sort of correlation here: I always focus on porn people who I find interesting (and not just degenerate); I’ve always been attracted to seeming opposites: like punks who meditate; or people who sell their body but remain pure of heart and spirit. I ain’t saying Ashley Blue is Noah Levine; or that she tries as hard as he does. But maybe there’s some connection: human: Levine: Blue: Benjamin: human: you: reading: blog: living: your: life.

“I really believe that punk rock and Buddhism are founded upon the same quality of dissatisfaction with the status quo.”